*Disclaimer - do not read if you don't want to see me whine and cry like a baby. Just an honest blog post about my true feelings, like it or not.*
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
We all have insecurities in life. I have many that I'd imagine are similar to other women - my face looks like a teenager in the middle of puberty, yet I'm getting crow's feet. My hips are wider now than I ever thought they'd be, and covered in stretch marks, no less. I'll never look right in a bikini again. My house isn't clean all the time, my laundry is never done, I burn dinner sometimes. And yes, all of those insecurities stress me out fairly often.
But my biggest insecurity?
Motherhood.
I worry ALL the time that I'm not doing a good enough job with my boys. I know there are BIG areas where I'm doing everything wrong. I know I get angry too quickly. I know I yell too much. I know I say, "just a minute" too often. I don't serve balanced meals most of the time. I don't play with them enough. I don't read them bedtime stories anymore. The list goes on and on and on and it kills me. My kids deserve better. I try, and sometimes I fail. It's been on my mind a lot lately because I've just lost another pregnancy. My 4th miscarriage. So I have to wonder, does God see me the way I see me? As not doing good enough? I'm doing the best I can most days, but I always know I could do more. As mothers, we are told not to compare ourselves to other moms. But it's really hard not to. I am friends with moms who have the patience of a saint, who homeschool, and do crafts every day, or are very involved in the PTA, the team moms, the successful juggle-everything-working-moms, etc etc etc. I know we all have our great moments in motherhood that show us we MUST be doing a good job. I have those times, too. So why do I focus on the bad? Why do I feel like I'm not doing enough for my boys?
Now it's your turn!!!
Day 1 - photo of yourself with 15 facts
Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been close to the longest.
Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 4 - A picture of your night
Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 9 - A picture of the person that has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life lately
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you are afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
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http://cafescrapper-scrapsoflife.blogspot.com/2011/02/30-day-photo-challenge-join-fun-and.html